He Sends His Regrets

In He Sends His Regrets, a professor at an Ivy League school confesses a most troubling event from his past. As a young man, he took advantage of good friend of his, an attractive girl from a wealthy family. After a drunken frat party, he found her passed out on a couch in the dorm and took her. He thinks he's gotten away with it--and he has!--but, really, his confession has only just begun. He feels guilty. Ashamed. He throws himself into his studies. Becomes a tenured professor. But he soon discovers he can't sustain a meaningful relationship with a woman. He begins negotiating with his female students for sex. Abusing his power. Finally he meets a lady, a woman so much like himself it's frightening. Only he doesn't realize this at first. She is a very needy woman, but it's not really sex she's after. He is drawn to her, and she uses him. Badly. She has no choice. Recovering from her own sexual abuse, she humiliates him. Degrades him. And the most amazing thing? Our poor confessor allows it. He must! For he knows that he is guilty. He knows he is not worthy. He has become his own judge, his own jury. And he wants to pay for his crimes. And he does--believe me, he pays. He has many regrets. And he pays for them all. He pays and pays and pays. 

Huck Pilgrim spans the globe searching for people willing to share their most shameful sexual secrets with you. It’s all here: the shame, humiliation, and degradation. 

And the best things is that it’s all true. It’s so dirty.