A Goodreads Choice Awards Nominee
A Junior Library Guild Selection
From Jas Hammonds, the award-winning author of We Deserve Monuments, comes an electric, heart-wrenching novel about a teen whose desperation to fit in leads to a dizzying relationship with alcoholโand a poignant journey of self-discovery.
"Sensitively wrought and gorgeously written." โCourtney Summers, New York Times bestselling author of Sadie and Iโm the Girl
Itโs the summer before college and Blake Brenner and her girlfriend, Ella, have one goal: join the mysterious and exclusive Serena Society. The sorority promises status and lifelong connections to a network of powerful, trailblazing women of color. Ellaโs acceptance is a sure thingโsheโs the daughter of a Serena alum. Blake, however, has a lot more to prove.
As a former loner from a working-class background, Blake lacks Ellaโs pedigree and confidence. Luckily, she finds courage at the bottom of a liquor bottle. When she drinks, sheโs bold, funny, and unstoppableโand the Serenas love it. But as pledging intensifies, so does Blakeโs drinking, until itโs seeping into every corner of her life. Ella assures Blake that sheโs fine; partying hard is what it takes to make the cut . . .
But success has never felt so much like drowning. With her future hanging in the balance and her past dragging her down, Blake must decide how far sheโs willing to go to achieve her glittering dreams of successโand how much of herself sheโs willing to lose in the process.
A powerful exploration of the lengths we go to feel seen, and the devastating consequences of an unquenchable thirst.