Melanie Garcia
I read this when I was about 15, it was so sad and disturbing. Coming from sexual abuse from my Dad, I felt so touched by her story. I've been an addict since I was 12, and I'm 43 now. I've been in only one real relationship, and I used to beat him up. I sold myself for money and drugs and was actually sexually excited by it. I'm reading this book again, now I'm 43, I've been clean for 6 years, but the realationship I was in somehow brought back dreams of my Dad, and I hit my boyfriend in my sleep. I love this book knowing I'm not the only one out here with serious psych problems. I'll never be able to have a good relationship with anyone, I self hurt in different ways. I live alone w/ my dog. My family lives in same city but there's no communication between us. I hurt still but I think it's better than hurting someone else. My dog is my bf and I love her. She sees me cry , scream and still loves me. When she dies, I'll die. I'm so alone. I used to kill and hurt cats and dogs when I was young. I wouldn't dare lift a finger to my dog now. but no one saw my troubles, I don't know how I lived thru it, but I did. My life is sad and alone, but this is what happens to children who make it to adulthood after serious abuse at a young age. Wherever she is I hope she's ok. Once this is done, that child is permanently scarred, mentally most of all. There's no going back after the 1st time if abuse. Never you'll always be different and weird.
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