And all looks a lot with a … nice concentration camp.
Today … i see unhappiness everywhere.
At poor people … but also at people that have all what they ever wanted.
All look like prisoners into a weird prison … generated mainly by their thoughts.
Unhappiness… is not depression.
No…
Hell no …
This unhappiness i am talking about… is simple the result of the fact that happiness is not there.
Is not such a big suffer …. but people are conscious that life is not what they really wanted.
They simple are alive … and have a life.
And … it’s ridiculous that many have all they ever dreamed … but they still carry on their faces that ugly mask of … unhappiness.
I look at all those people around myself … but also at my own life … and i realise that it all looks like … we live in a reality looking more like a … concentration camp.
But this is a place … where we actually have all we ever wanted … except the fact that we had became … prisoners.
…. Of circumstances …. of connections with people we don’t really like … of lots of other things we can’t really accept into our lives.
Of course … we are in better position than the ones … suffering of depression… which are in fact living in realities … similar with the real prisons … but still we can’t express our wildness side.
We are not allowed to do it.
We simple have to respect lots of rules … that are ruing our chances to be happy.
This ugly concentration camp … drives us crazy … but we can’t get out from there.
And it looks like … we will most probably remained trapped in there … forever.
There is no real way out.
So … we don’t really live in a prison … but we are still prisoners … into a weird place … so similar with a concentration camp … except the fact that we have all we ever desired.
The paradox itself is that the Universe allowed us as all we wanted to become real … except the fact that we probably forgot to ask for the most important thing … happiness.
So … dominated by unhappiness… life keeps going … with no real hope …that something will really change.
We remain … there … not realising that being happy or unhappy can actually be a simple decision …
Or maybe i should say … staying in that concentration camp … or leaving is just a decision.
I’ve started to write my first book at 16 … but then … realizing i could not publish it … i’ve abandoned the idea of being a … writer.
20 years later … i’ve started to write again … believing i will finally succeed … but i’ve failed one more time … not getting the success i was chasing for.
Another 5 years later … i’ve started one more time to write … but this time … more as a therapy.
It’s what i’ve defined as … self therapy.
I was analyzing and defining lots of weird ideas … that were a lot related to me … and my own soul.
I totally forgot that i was chasing for success.
I was simple writing my thoughts … in essays … becoming this way … maybe not a writer …. but what many define as … an essayist.
This is not a poet … and not a writer.
Or maybe is kind of a poet that is incapable of writing poetry … but is still expressing his thoughts … into a similar way … as a poet.
And is not a writer … cause have not the ability to write for
too long time … about the same subject.
But maybe i am not an essayist… either.
I am just an ordinary person … that could be better defined … as a thinker.
Analyzing … and defining my life … practicing this process called … self therapy … i started to understand life … and the way to better paths which i should follow.
And i’ve wrote … and wrote … and wrote … realizing one day that i’ve published tens of books …. not really understanding how the hell I’ve succeeded doing that.
Today i dare to recommend writing … as a therapy.
I could even say … it’s a simple way of understanding who we are … but also a process that could help us … heal our souls.
I personally continue to … write.
It’s in fact … a non ending story that … at least for myself … will probably continue for the rest of my life.
But over all … i am glad … i am doing it.
I continue my philosophical journey … not being able to define myself for clear as a writer or an essayist… but …
Well …. most probably… i am on a good path.
And … i would dare to recommend to everyone … all what i am doing today.